One moment you are the one. The next moment you will cause pain and sarrow.
Life is chance and choices. One wrong move and you changed EVERYTHING. Once was right is wrong and vise versa. But the joke was on me. Sad thing is I knew it was to good to be true.
I look into your eye and they shine while mine stay dull,
Your soul shines through, glimmering with your intent
I sit across from you and wish I knew what it was to be you
To feel like you had purpose and meaning in life
Seeing you with another the love you have for them
I want that feeling, I want to know what its like to be loved unconditionally.
He will never be happy with me, just complacent
He will never want only me, just sometimes, maybe….
He will never feel how I feel, even if he thinks so
He will never know, the way I wish to go
He will never love me, how he does everyone else
He will never know how everyday I wish to die.
One of those nights where in wish I could just hug you
Embrace you, and feel your lost beating heart try to match mine
Run my hands through your that thick soft hair like I used to when you were down.
Those long talks of ifs and when’s to our futures.
Even the salty sweet tears that would trickle down my face when we had our “talks” I miss that feeling of reassurance at the end.
I just want you to be happy, I don’t know what exactly changed but something did and I can’t help.
And for that my dear, I am sorry.
With love always.