Every Morning Determines the day, and my mornings suck.

Today has started out like any¬†other, waking up the mondaine and I thought it would teeter to the side of good, that is until I got to work. It started like any other day, I opened the doors, and started the coffee. Just keeping to myself because everyone else is annoying,mostly I’m just not in the mood and half of them don’t make me smile. Well once I did sit down, I am already in trouble with an email from the GM for a shipping issue that was working on being resolved on Friday, but was not due to it being good Friday. So it carried over and I was to continue fixing it. To then be greeted multiple times by people who are grouchy either phone or in person. Then thru all of this to find out it was our fault anyways. specifically mine on this particular order. We are to change out the shipping area on our POs, which I don’t ever remember doing on any of them. Just not it has become an issue in my 2+ years here. Plus both ladies seem crabby. So today is going just swimmingly. Not to mention the country music today is all sad love songs. -_-



So I’m quite nervous for work tomrrow. It is either going to hopefully be okay or the worst choice having to continue working dreading everyday working with people who are all on the look out for them selves and are not at fault or talk behind your back or just hates your interaction. I have no one at work except for Erik and I feel we get the most shit. The most spat on . Yeah I’m not trying to justify the way thing are/were handled was the most appropriate. I just hope that that one more chance is give . I need Erik at work to get me thru the day. To help me hate the day just less enough I can go to work. I can’t stand the daily get up everyday. I need keep anything good I have going. I love my friends and I need certain ones in certain places. And I’m afraid of the day I loose those. I open up about certain topics to few people and I don’t feel regret, Erik is one of these people. I guess I just don’t know what work will be like with out him since he’s been there since I started and taught me how to build our machines. Idk what it would be like if he’s not there anymore.

Just fuck…….

The days drag on one by one more and more useless and unfortunate as the next. Little excitement here and there. It’s days like today I wonder what I’m even good for. What have I accomplished in life. What is the point of seeing tomrrow. Work was shit today and I absolutely hated it.  Consider the idea maybe I should get a different job maybe I am to useless for my position at work. And then I go on because tomrrow is a new day. 

2 Years with Gentec

I hit 2 years with Gentec today. Not that anyone would know that tho. Its been an interesting ride lots up stress and learning, especially this past year. I have been in the office with lots of trials that I just keep failing and its quite stressful. I don’t know I’m doing it wrong until its to late. Everything i do like ask for help comes and bites me in the ass. its just a joke sometimes. I do enjoy most of the people I work with, but there are few I need to watch out for lots of blame games. I do have to say the parts about me failing tho is my fault, I am trying to learn but I get a lot of things that I feel are just time consuming, and I don’t always have the allotted time needed to precede with what I need to do. Thus causing it to get pushed back. Then I get in trouble. I don’t look forward to my review that should be coming up, I am quite nervous. I just hope it all goes well.

Long time since a post….

I have not got a chance to post in a while. Unfortunately to long, and I am hoping to fix this. There are so many times that I want to post but lately (meaning like the past month) I have been falling asleep at like 8:30 pm or 9 pm. It has been so annoying and when I get free time it isn’t not free I am doing something. Currently I am house sitting with a boxer until the 14th. And tonight I leave for Ohio because tomorrow is Goetta Fest in Cincinnati. Then I come back to House sitting for the next week and I am off to Door County to help with my cousins clothing shop boutique. Out of all of this I still need to work on wedding photos which I have not had a chance to do a lot with, and it is stressing me out. I don’t have a lot of just chill time lately its usually by the time I get to sit down. I fall sleep. Then I am perpetually tired. Its like a vicious never ending cycle. I hate it! I wish I cared for more then I do, but lately my days are just merged together and nothing is exciting. I hope this weekend goes well. I look forward to see Diera, even if it is only for a day. Well Thanks for reading I must get back to work for my break is over. Good Day!


Kind of cranky today. Why? I’ll tell you why. When you work so many days in a row,  then the day prior you work 12 hour shift. With people being jerk demanding information.  Yes I work in a job I need to explain assist and help people with technology (specifically phones) I would appreciate is you asked me like a one person to another. None if this snippy attitude, the telling me what I need to do for you, or talking down to me when you are the one who doesn’t understand hence why you are asking me. -_- now come on people, I for one love to help and inform people if I can. I just don’t appreciate it. I don’t know why you feel I need you speak to me like this but calm your jets.

Well here’s to today

today was to be a good day. Instead I get to work and my coworker is pissy and just not listening. On top of her boasting about her hitting bonus and Matt too. When I just barely squeezed by on hitting half my budget. I freaking dis like today. Now I’m crabby. And I am stuck here until 630pm.

On top of that tomorrow my mom is getting a feeding tube put in. My cousin is coming down to go with her I think. I don’t really know anything about it. So that’s fun.

But on a plus side I was asked to photograph a wedding. I was honored to b thought of for that. And I would love to. I think I will need help tho. Gunna find some help… I just feel in adiquet to doing such a job. But I’d hate to miss an opprotunity. So we will see how this pans out.

Thanks for reading. I hope u have a good day.

At work... workin'

posted on the go.

Just Talking

Today I feel better then I did yesterday. Now yesterday was sick, and stuck at work. While throwing up, a bunch. and I couldn’t leave. so its was a great evening for me stuck in a kiosk. Otherwise briskly walking to the bathroom so members so see it BC that just seems unprofessional. Not that i could handle talking to them anyways bc that alone made me sick. So in comparison today is like amazing i can keep water down. but in ear infection wise I am still recovering. Not quite back to normal yet. There is still pressure in my ears, but hearing is better then it was. That whole sickness yesterday was all the crap that my body drained and couldn’t digest. but least its out now.

On other news I started playing Guild Wars 2 again with 2 friends I found out also play so that’s super awesome! I made 2 more lvls tonight. Defiantly have to get back in the swing of things with this. Not used to this type of gaming since Cabal which will i think remain a favorite game of mine. So I am pretty excited I got that gong again.